Fantasy turned reality!

        All of us have some inherent close to heat feelings  ,which may seem despicable or just so ordinary;but when achieved , gives a sense of immense satisfaction; incomparable to even the greatest of the achievements!This was what I could correlate to my first experience in the snow capped mountain region.

      We had our  Christmas vacation in my relatives place at Seattle , WA. This was a long awaited visit because they have been inviting us since a  long time,and I was avoiding the visit and kept it in store for the December month, just to fulfill my "long awaited dream "of going amidst the snow. So finally the time arrived and I was heading to unite my' long waited unseen  muse';explore an' unrevealed enigma.'.No love story would have had such a sensational experience which  I had:)We headed towards the "Mt Baker"near Seattle ,the day we landed there itself just in an hour !.

        As we were heading towards the curving steep roads ,I could see the snow capped mountains  at a distance  which looked really beautiful.There were forests on the way which had  mostly  bare trees  without leaves, intermingled with some green trees and looked as if they had some depressing story to tell.But the situation wasn't the same, because as we moved  further higher ,we could see the "evergreen pine trees"everywhere and they looked tall and nice and were full of life. As we moved further,suddenly my husband spotted something 'white'on the ground and showed me and I exclaimed "snow snow"and  my relatives and their kids started laughing.Yes ,for me it was my dream come true ,whilst I was seeing snow for the first time!

     From there ,it was a foggy, misty snow covered route and the rest of the journey unveiled heart throbbing scenes; because we were at an elevation of 3000 feet and could see snow everywhere and mountains and forests with  pine trees covered with huge chunks of snow ,which I had only seen on the artificial Christmas trees and on the celluloid screen in movies.I remember ,when I saw those Bollywood movies and songs ,I fantasized those scenes and imagined myself there.The  sight was really breath taking  because one side  it was mountains and the other side was the valley and in between ,were we traveling on the road.I couldn't resist till I reached the actual place ,and asked my uncle to stop the car on the way .I got down the car and stepped down the car anticipating the long awaited sensation of the snow. which was only a perception till then.And yes ,I really felt as if I were in a 'self   created heaven  'and there was no boundaries to my happiness with the sight and the feel of being in the icy region surrounded by mist and fog and snow everywhere. I felt the snow and held it as if it was some precious stone and then my feet weren't just on ground and I acted crazy and started playing and throwing  snow on myself and  others too.After this , we continued and  finally reached Mt Baker/snokaoulami pass and the place was  really  enchanting and mesmerizing with the dark green snow  mountains  and contrasting white snow looking like a' black and white 'picture in a portrait/landscape. The new horizon just made me say "wow"so many times that the 'wow' word seemed scorn.We all enjoyed heartily there playing in the snow ,making a 'snowman',skidding and sliding  and throwing snow balls at each other and stayed for quite a while.The next day again we had been to another snow region named 'Steven's pass' because I didn't have enough of it the previous day:)This too was a beautiful place and I still managed to have the same thrill ,I had the first time.As if to add to my pleasures,even the third day of my stay at my relatives place ,there was unexpected snowfall at their place itself.The snow showers were mild and was in the form of small white snowballs or beads falling over .I managed to sneak out and drench myself in the' pearl  showers' and felt blissed.I think the snow showers made me forget that I was a mother to a 5 year old and made me myself a kid.

     I know most of you who live in the regions were it snows regularly, would be wondering that I am insane!I am aware of the difficulties and obstructions you guys face day to day with this.People cannot get out of their houses ,the roads are undrivable with snow slides and skidding wheels ,kids cannot play for long outside ;the bad weather ;the  boredom ;health problems associated etc etc.But believe me ;this is what happened to me ,because it was my fantasy turned  reality! 


PS:As I was writing this post;on the other side ,I hear news of heavy snow storm hitting the Boston,New york and other parts in the east coast in the US and also the southern England.OOPS!This is what they call "one person's fantasy is another person's nightmare"

Happy new year

Happy new year to all blogger friends and all others  and also wishing  a new brighter life and a new begining.vacation mood =no blogging:)chao!!

What do you call it as?

Today's occasion reminded me of the good old days of my 'pre-marriage' and thought of penning down a few words.I was doing my college near Mangalore and had a common relative at the same place who was a mediator between the 2 families  for our marriage.I had not still completed my studies and had 8 months to finish my final exams .Inspite of this,the social obligations and parental pressure had  compelled me to agree to the marriage ;with a "condition" imposed to the guy's family that they had to wait for 8 months for me to complete my studies.Amidst the agreements and talks regarding the proposal ,we were in the process of acquaintance with each other.Slowly time passed on and we grew close to each other ,my "proposed to be hubby"used to come to the hostel to meet me ,we used to hang  out ,meet at restaurants,parks ,and also had long long telephone conversations.The funny part was that my fiance who was a "very silent introvert guy" ,had 1 hour to 2 hour  dedicated time everyday exclusively for me,and all his relatives and friends were amazed with the perception of him calling to a girl and  having such long chats.There  was a strange bond and feeling of compassion,possession  between us . 

             We were  having a discussion on this matter with our mutual friends yesterday night ;and for a coincidence,even they had a similar story  to share .They too had seen each other at a common friend's place with an intention of marriage proposal ,and then the marriage was kept on "hold" for 2 years due to some personal reasons.Despite this, they used to meet ,have telephone conversations and "feelings" of a true'Romeo Juliet ' love story.Then they married and are a happy couple now.So ,as we were in the process of reminiscence,we all got into a 'sweet argument 'questioning the tag to be associated with such marriages.would it be tagged as"love" or "arranged"marriage?Well ,"arranged love marriage " or "love cum arranged marriage" seems little absurd for me.Meanwhile,the occasion  for this argument was our " 7th marriage anniversary".

          

Emotional Blend

    It's raining in the area where i live, since past 1 week and the the past 2 days have been really cloudy and rainy. Rain  always instills a peculiar zeal in me and so I thought of dedicating my post to it.Though rainy season lasting for long may be annoying for many of us," first rains" are always impressive .

            First drops always carry an array of feelings in us;right from the stage when the grey cloud starts forming ,till the touch of the droplets to the soil,to the ceasing  gloomy stage ;we are always carried away into "roller coaster ride of emotions".The aroma of the drenched soil soothing our senses,the sight of the blowing trees and swaying droplets soothing our eyes ,the harmonious melody of the down pour soothing our ears,they all  leave us mesmerised.We  may be in a "nostalgic world "filled with sweet /bitter memories form the past .For some it may be an expression of euphoria; hearts would be intrigued by  passion and romance.On the contrary ,it may also carry a sense of tranquility ,bore dome or indolence .With a sense of desolation within us ,we would be constantly gazing at the foggy sky.We would sleep for hours even if  we are not stressed;we would have an increased appetite to specific foods,even if the body doesn't demand.So strange and wonderful are these rainy days.

"Dramatic teen"...why so weird???

We all have experienced the nostalgic childhood days with different memories for each one of us.But of all those years ,i feel my teenage(especially 12 to 15) was the most dramatic one in  life with so many vivid thoughts and imaginations.As a gal hailing from a traditional Brahman family (though grown in a city),I was prohibited from hanging around with friends after school ,movies ,late night returns to home,etc.It was home to school and back to home.But the time in between at school used to be fun.I had one friend who was very dear to me and we used to hang out together even though it used to be during school hours or during our dance/music classes after school.We used to discuss so many fascinating topics for teenagers , have fun in our own way by throwing our lunch boxes and having a banana leaf served meal for lunch at our favorite restaurant at Mangalore.(i forgot the name)and also the "ragada patiese"a famous chat served at a small chat corner.And my finance was from my pocket money and if that fell short,then it used to be stolen money from my mom's purse.
                  My friend and me had strange attractions towards the opposite sex then ,her choice of guys kept changing ,once it was this guy from our boys school guy who used to play flute (she was crazy for flutes),and then it was the restaurant  guy ,who was fair,charming and  was"blue eyed",which mesmerised her.Even i had one crush at those times ,a paint shop cashier!oh my...I remember ,everyday when i used to travel on my dad's motorcycle on the way to school ,we used to exchange a unexplainable look : it seemed as if our eyes exchanged a lot of thoughts and words.
         We also had these bizarre thoughts crossing our minds about the "world end"which was assumed to be in 2000 and had our own" forecasts ", imagined the sequel later .My friend even had this idea of eloping with the restaurant guy on the last day of the world if both survived.There was one more drama sequence which we had imagined in our real lives:this happened when i was annoyed and hurt for some matter by my parents .We thought of being "free birds" just eloping away ,and having our own lives and not relying on our parents for anything ,depending on each other and being friends forever. But then the question arouse"what if one among us fell in love ?"Then we had to be in a contract as to not get married!because things would change if one of us get married.We imagined and floated in our self created "fantasy world".Now after so many years ,when i rewind and picture those days ,i feel ..why was i so weird then?I know this is pretty much common to most of us and everyone have a story to share ,don't you?

WHEN THE TURMOIL STRIKES....

Have you all wondered many a times in life "why only me of all?".yes this is what we question most of the times when we are succumbed to some critical situations in life.I used  to feel once that its only me who is always in trouble ,but then it's a coincidence that I have acquainted/witnessed  some real life stories which have inspired me to face the challenges in life.
    
      This is a story of a gal who lived her life like a princess with all the royalties and pleasures in life ;and why not ?she was the daughter of a person who himself lived  a life of a " king "and was respected by the entire society .Hailing from a traditional Brahman family ,she had to get married early and there was a hurdle to the process of looking for a right mate.Every proposal she received would be deceived from her through a family enemy ;and so eventually she was forcefully married to a guy with an unappealing education ,position ,status and also appearance and attitude.She tried to be as compatible and accommodated herself to the new environment ;but fate had a bad game for her in treasure. Time moved on and she had 2 kids in her hand and managed both work and home ;but poor husband had no time for her and her kids.He was too busy with his college lectures,tuition's and his own commitments;the zest for money overruled emotions and there was turbulence at home.Finally the person reached up to the point of physical violence and asking for a share of his belongings from the home;he wanted a separation,an unofficial divorce.This stage went on for a few years;meanwhile the lady  had to find ways to mange her 2 kids ,their education and well being.She moved to a different city requesting for a transfer and also a higher wage ,and managed to achieve that.Eventually over the years she had a divorce from the person ,and he was also least bothered about the kids.She achieved new horizons in life from the career perspective now,manged to even buy a flat through a loan and also give good education to the kids in a very good school.Her parents ,brother were only there for moral support,and she was aware of the fact that internally they were not pleased with her.These situations are pretty much common in the USA ,but Indian society is still way behind all these;the blame game would only be towards the lady and the society would not accept this. Some people would even cook up stories and also reason out that she had betrayed her husband and moved to the city and questions aroused about her character also.At times even she would be pressurised for a remarriage from her parents due to the social pressures,but she would ignore all these because the kids needed all her affection ,and also she needed time to come out of the previous circumstances.
            The kids grew up and it was already 5 years since all this happened ,and elder kid was in class 10 and younger in class 8.Now the kids were so understanding and loving ,that they too started to plead their mom to get married ,since they were bothered about her secure future in their absence when they grow up ans settle down with their jobs.The younger kid was particularly insistent on his mother getting married and was requesting her that he too had a wish to live in a ambiance of a" complete family".With not much of difficulty,a right match was found ,and the person she married had also 2 kids and was betrayed from his wife.He was understanding and caring ,the way she had dreamt her life mate should have been.Everyone where happy and they lived happily thereafter.
                        But wait, the story doesn't end here;as if god envied her happiness ,she had another disaster waiting.They had been to the picnic to a beach one fine day and when both the kids (younger one of the lady,and the younger one of the second husband)where playing ,her dearest child was engulfed and carried away into the ocean in fraction of seconds .the other kid who was also present there almost in par with him was safe.It was just bad fate.She was helpless and there was nobody who could fight the ocean and save him then ,because the tides were bad that day ,and they were not aware of the fact.So this is her present tense,and the story continues...
         2)  This is one of the instances of my husband's close friend who had a secure family life with mother and his brother staying at Bangalore at their own house,and they (wife and son)staying at USA .Life was going on smoothly and suddenly a bad news struck him regarding his brother's loss in his share marketing company ,and that all the loan lenders were pestering him to return their loans.As an elder brother and eldest in the family it was his duty to settle his brother's loans ,and so he had to spend all his life time savings on his brother;it was huge amount (1 .5 crores).He had also spent the previous year on his own house construction at Bangalore and also as a very helpful person, had spent 1000 's of dollars helping his friends in need.This was a huge financial hurdle for  him.Meanwhile, his son also was going through some sort of disturbance ,and was constantly complaining of stomach pains ,and one fine day while bathing him,his wife noticed a bulge on his stomach and felt there was something wrong .They took him to a doctor and after all the necessary diagnosis ,he was diagnosed with "cancer of the kidney" .The kid was just 4 years old and had to go through the process of surgical biopsy and then chemotherapy on  a weekly basis.Now that he was left helpless  financially ,he started requesting his money back from his friends ,and couldn't even get it back when needed;but somehow managed to receive the help from some other friends.His insurance limits had already crossed ,and he was spending thousands of dollars now,through the period of one year.  Chemotherapy proved successful and the child was recovered and even started going to school one month back.Now recently again we heard a news that the child had been for his regular check up,when the doctor noticed a "black radio dense circle" in the radio graph ,and suspected it to be some sort of infection ,and kept it under observation for 6 weeks.We tried convincing the parents ,and told them to have a positive approach ,and be affirmative that it could be an infection,and would subside.But after the painful 6 weeks wait on"bed of thorns" the parents came back from the doctor's visit ,with a diagnosis of "cancer in the lungs"and the scar which they saw ,had now started growing and  was 1 cm wide from 0.2 cm. Now the child is scheduled for another surgical biopsy on Monday,and then the story continues....
       These are few stories which I witnessed and there are few others which leave me very disturbed and I keep wondering "Life can have unexpected drastic uncertanities and twists in treasure "We have no control on life when the turmoil strikes. I recently happened to see a movie which had lines"Live each day as if it is your last day". I truely feel at times that this is true;having  a secure future is good,but bothering too much about future ,makes no sense.Enjoy your life at present as a  god's gift.